As always, I have been thinking entirely too much and staying up too late. What can I say? I am a complete extremist! Throughout my life, I have sought something that was always just out of reach: balance. I know that it cannot just be the fact that I was born under the sun sign of Libra, the sign of the Scales of Balance. There has got to be more than just that...
I do have some balance in my life today, but not as much as I would like. I think I have been trying to tip the scales in the opposite direction, from where it was, to where I would like it to be. But fixing a fragmented life is not as simple, as I would like it to be.
At any given moment, I am swinging between at least five different tasks, and not really giving my full attention to any of them. This is readily apparent to me. I am quite certain that those around me continually shake their heads, and wonder: "Where the hell is this girl's head at?" I think that I have a problem with biting off more than I can chew and this gets me into trouble.
So, my main goal now, is to focus. I know, in my last blog, I was begging for a purpose. I have decided, that a purpose is not essential. I focus too much energy on the so-called "problems" in my head, and not enough energy is spent on solution-based strategies. As much as this pains me to write this: I have to resort to becoming a little more conventional and a little less eccentric. Maybe, then, there will be hope for me to start putting all these mental plans into actions. Sitting here obsessing about what is next, does me no good- planning and most importantly, executing, these plans is essential.
I think it is time to stop living in my head and start living in reality. The two worlds are not mutually exclusive! I have to remind myself this, on a daily basis, from now on. I forget that I can bring my quirky brain with me, wherever I may go.
I will close with this thought: Life is something you create. What will I create, next?
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