- I am a bit of a shut-in. I like to go out, don't get me wrong, but I think that I may spend too much time within the confines of our property, out here in the semi-woods. I am fairly certain that I need to start getting out more.
- I need to gain weight. Yes, you can start hating me now- most people have the opposite problem.
- I have a gargantuan ego and low self-esteem. Go figure!
- I am entirely too sensitive. This makes me an easy target for people to pick on me!
- My daughter needs friends her age; hanging around me all the time cannot be healthy. I think my parenting skills stink, also. I pray only for Trinity to be different from her mother. I love being a Mommy, I just think that I am really bad at the whole thing!
- I think my writing sucks, but I do it anyway.
- I want to be my own boss. I am sick of tyrannical employers with bigger egos than my own. Plus, I think that I am smarter than they are, I just lack ambition to be better at what I do.
- I miss my father. Rest in peace, Donald Stutzenburg, Sr. You are the reason I do not drink anymore... You were taken far before your time. It makes me sad to think that Trinity will never know how funny and intelligent you were, when you were still with us.
- I have an energy drink addiction. I need to drink less caffeine and more water.
- I am online way too much. This is obvious.
- I love being single, but I am lonely and this makes me miss the few good times I had with my child's father. This is a scary thought.
I am obsessive-compulsive, but not so much so, that I qualify for having a mental health disorder. - My wardrobe looks like I am still in High School. I guess I have a nostalgia addiction, as well. I think, as I get older, I am regressing. I guess I don't want to grow up. Being a kid was so much easier.
- The past haunts me! I wish I did not have a photographic memory.
- I really don't know what direction that my life is heading in, and this drives me mad.
- My taste in music does not help me. I think I need to stop listening to sad songs and revisit the days where I listened to ska-punk.
- I am a total dork! Enough said, on this topic.
- My diet sucks! I am a total junk food junkie. I need to get back on the organic foods kick. The food additives in junk food are toxic.
- Too many interests, too little time- this seems to be the story of my life.
- Procrastination is an art form. I have been dubbed Avenue, because I am Avoidant.
- I use comas and semi-colons way too much.
- Randomness is a way of life.
- I think I have adult ADHD. Staying on topic is so hard for me to do.
- Insomnia- something I wish I did not have.
- I miss the video games that the ex sold. But I am glad I still own all my action figures!
I actually slept last night, which is nothing short of a miracle. I think that I am finally getting enough clarity of mind and thought, that I can actually fall asleep at a normal time and stay asleep. I think that, if nothing else, all the writing I have been doing is very therapeutic. I just wish that I could get this book written and get on with my life, sooner rather than later. I know that nothing that is worth doing can be done overnight, but damn. I just wish that my left wrist would not start throbbing after a few hours of typing. There is so much that I have to write and I am irritated that a silly mistake that I made back in 1997, on Rollerblades, can still haunt me to this day. I suppose that I could just take an ibuprofen when the pain strikes, but I detest taking any sort of over-the-counter medication. If it hurts, then I should just stop what I am doing and come back to it later. I suppose that this list is another way for me to procrastinate. Back to work, I go!
Listening to:
One of my all-time favorite songs, Tainted Love- Soft Cell
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